When Tyson started a custom, luxury playhouse
No. Just no. No way. I didn't have to think about it. I had no desire to put myself or my family before the world audience to be critiqued, judged, or worse. I had so many reasons that I didn't even feel the need to explain them. I'm private. I don't have that personality. That's not me. I'm not good enough. And plus, as soon as TLC saw who I really was, they wouldn't want me anyway so what was the point in trying?
There was one big problem. What is to be done when your husband's dream-come-true and your worst nightmare collide into one single offer? My solution was to pray. To ask God to help him see what a terrible idea this was. That it would be hard on our family and much too challenging for me. From my perspective, I couldn't see how God would ever want us to do a reality show. I felt completely justified in my stance against it and was only determined to convince Tyson to agree.
About a week after the initial
Through tears, I prayed again about what to do and still, doing the show was not on my list of reasonable answers. And then it became one in an instant. The voice of Elder Holland quoting Hebrews 10:39 (from a BYU speech he gave called, Cast Not Away Therefore Your Confidence that I had listened to at least 15 times) came quietly into my mind. The words were, "We are not of them who draw back." Along with this favourite phrase, came the peace and understanding that I was to go ahead with the show. I had a moment of disbelief, thinking that this just couldn't be God's plan for me. But I knew what I had heard and felt and I knew what I had to do.
We are now post-filming season 1. We made 8 great episodes with High Noon, a production company that not only respects and values our morals but holds similar ones themselves. I believe we made a positive, uplifting TV show. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. I have doubted everything about myself along the way, including my health, my appearance, my like-ability. I have left my beloved
But I have also never doubted God's plan for me since he reminded me that I am, "Not of them who draw back." I have learned so much about God's tender mercies, His Grace, and just how sure his promise is to prepare a way when we try our best to accomplish what he asks of us. I don't know the whole design of His plan in regards to our
Have you ever done something simply because God told you to?